Bob takes the brunt of these mood swings - but he handles it well. Then he reminds me that it is tough and I will get through it.
Here is a good quote that fits - well kind of - maybe - might -
“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”
― Marilyn Monroe
Some days I am just plain in the gutter with this.
My gutter crawling, squalling days are directly connected to the 10 days that Mom was dying. I totally understand that she was 93 - had a good life - enjoyed her last year and a half - had an interesting journey - had wonderful children - sure I know all of that - especially the last part.
BUT - I get thrown right back into those 10 days - waiting - knowing she was in there dying - knowing she was not wanting to die - holding her hand - reading to her from her bible - playing her favorite music - and all the while knowing there was nothing I could do - nothing. It just dumps on me like a pile of shit - right into the gutter I go.
I am ready to move on - hope that my brain is ready every day - maybe not.